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Oh, here I go. LOL XD

I don't know if someone noticed I said on a previous journal that I had a "surprise" to tell you all? ;u; Well, I am here to tell it. XD Beforehand I apologize, because the text may end up getting HUMOUNGOUS but it is important so if you could read it it'd be great :'D ALTHOUGH I AM VERY SHY AND I MAY END UP EXPLAINING IT REALLY BAD. XD

So, well, uhm. -COUGH- 8D

All of you know that I am a huge Avengers/Marvel fan xD ( NOOO ) I've completely fallen in love with everything related to them. XD I was always a Marvelite because I always loved Spider-Man and other heroes but I didn't know SO much about the Avengers, until the movie came out and I got to watch it. ;u; Obviously I was dragged to the HEAVEN OF FANGIRLISM. LOL It is just so perfect that I -- as I usually do when I get hooked in something -- decided to Google some things up and find out more about them and all. I constantly read stuff about them and my amazing uncle ( who owns a comic book store!! ) borrowed for me an AMAZING book with many Issues of the Original Avengers of 1968 I think 8D I was so hyped I spent loads of days reading the stories and falling even more in love with all the characters <3 Between that I watched and re-watched the movies even more and all XD
But, as you may also know, my favorite character is Loki.
It's not just because he's evil and stylish, but because he has a incredibly deep and amazing story behind him ;u; I was interested in him ever since I saw 'Thor' for the first time and it got to grow even more when I watched the Avengers XD I adore his characrter to the dephts of my heart <333333 :heart: It's really a lot for me to explain so I won't really bug you all with a bible of all the reasons I love him. x'D
Buuuuuuuuuuut, meanwhile all that Avengers mood ( that still lives to this day, I am proud to say ) I was always RPing with my RL cousin Giovanna, pratically everyday C: We RPed many things, and she asked me one day if I'd like to RP Avengers with her, because she has a OC for it. She watched Avengers before me so I already knew her OC and all and I adore her XD And when she asked that she also said "Why don't you make an OC for it too? I can help you. :3" And I was like UWAAAAA but I KNEW I WANTED TO. LOL x'D

Sooooo, I have an Avengers OC. *-* I-I didn't introduce her here before because it's REALLY COMPLICATED and and I was having conflicts with a lot of feelings QQQAQQQ But let me just start with the beggining. -cough- Her name is Karine, and she's a regular human who lives in New York. She has no powers or whatsoever, because she started to appear in my mind slowly xD As I was talking to my cousin I started having ideas and she kept supporting me, so I ended up making her official and all. ;u; I owe it all to my cousin. She supported me all the way <3
Now it gets to the hard part. XD I know it may seem really obvious to some of you, but I wanted her to be paired with Loki.
AGAHRJAJRGJAKATGHJAAKATGHJSAJA I ALWAYS had in mind that it would be pratically impossible and I wouldn't want to mess in his amazing development but as I kept going it just started to work, I don't even know how to explain... I wanted, deep inside, to have a way to be part of his story. It was not about OH HE'S GORGEOUS SO THEY'RE TOGETHER. No. I wanted to be able to do something about it and be part of what he is, in a rather different way... But I was always unsure of what it would end up becoming.
I'm aware that this LokixOC thing is complicated, really, and that is +1 reason I was really unsure of bringing Karine to the light... But I will not lie. After MONTHS of work I've come up with something that made me proud. And I really hope you all see it the same way as I do, because I surely don't have the intention to end up making it all sound wrong. LOL I created her around October of last year and kept her in secret ( even from my sister OLOLOLOLO of course she knows now XD ) only my cousin and I knew about her as she was helping me to develop her.
My cousin's OC is an Shield Agent, so she doesn't have powers as well, and that made her help me even more to make Karine a good OC even without POWERS and everything... Gosh, if I read this journal after I'm finished I'm gonna be so UGH-ED because I explain things so awfully XD Anyway... Karine is a 26 years old woman that lives alone in a Trailer ( like the one from Ben 10's grandpa XD ) and works in a office of a small company in the center of the city. Her trailer is stationed in the outskirts of the city, so she usually takes a cab to work and everything. She's a polite and gentle woman who always tries to see good in others and takes priority in helping others. She sees it as a matter of much importance; no matter what you do, she'll try to help you, even if she doesn't know you. That is partially because as she lives by herself she's quite... lonely, you see. It may sound dumb me saying it, but you may know what I mean xD She has no sisters or brothers, and when she grew up and got a job she tried really hard to be able to have her own home, and a place she could belong. But she didn't know it would be the way it was. She treasures company, yet she has none. Things were always the same for her.
During the events of the Avengers, she was outside of town, traveling for part of a job she had to do. When she came back, she saw the city destroyed. LOL She didn't understand exactly what happened but then the events were explained to her and things started to get back to normal in NY. But, one year later, something happened; something that'd change Karine's life forever. ( Hey, it sounds intense but I didn't manage of a way to make it sound less that way XD ) After the crisis, Thor was supposed to bring Loki back to Asgard for justice, right? My cousin and I thought up an idea to work with that.
It was a regular night when Karine was going home after work. It was all gloomy and the rain had started right after she got out of the cab who took her to the deserted streets of the city's outskirts. She was following the trail that led to her trailer when something started to happen. There were powerful lightnings in the sky as the storm got stronger, and Karine saw something in the sky, falling for the ground in an incredible speed. The collission was brutal, and it shook the ground and opened a crater in the ground. Karine was afraid, but she came closer to investigate what happened and what could've fallen from the sky. It was nothing -- or no one -- but Loki himself.
He was badly injured and uncounscious in the crater from the collision. It ended up that he had escaped from his prison in Asgard and in an desperate attempt to flee, he entered in Midgard's dimension and fell, powerless, into the ground. Karine was shocked, but she gathered a bit of courage to come even closer to check if that man was alive. She didn't knew who he was; she wasn't in the city during the crisis and plus, it was having a hell of a storm xD By seeing he was still alive, she started to try and carry him out of the crater for cover. She struggled and managed to drag him all the way to her Trailer, and started to treat his injuries while he was uncounscious, after that falling asleep on a couch from exaustion herself, as Loki was resting in her bed.

That was pretty much what I had gotten at first with the help of my cousin... There are some different events where my cousin's OC meets Karine and everything, but the Loki x her thing was still ongoing, and I wondered what I could do next. Of course, I had thought up that when Loki awakened the first thing he'd do was to murder her LOL And I was pretty much closed at that XD

But then, I made a profile ( after my cousin insisted me to and I felt like it as well ) for her in a site called Orkut, where you can RP with people and all. My cousin had a profile there so my only purpose there was to RP with her Avengers OC ( because we always RP-ed other things trough msn ) but... things took a different kind of path XD I added my cousin and started RPing with her there, only for fun and for a little development for both, but then some other people ( Avengers/Marvel RPers ) added Karine there. None seemed to have much interest in RPing, so they just added my profile and left it at that; but one day, a Loki added me there, and when I went to say thanks for him doing so, I thought for a moment and decided to ask if he would like to RP with me. I had Karine's info on her profile ( the short version XD ) so I thought it wouldn't be a problem to ask... And he answered "I'd love to."

So we started RPing together and it was an amazing experience... He played such a perfect Loki right from the start; it was unbeliavable.

He started right from where Karine's developed had stopped. Obviously that means he took his time to read her profile and do a proper RP, because he made it like Loki was resting in her Trailer and slowly started to awake, noticing he was in an unknown place, and there was an also unknown woman there. He asked who she was and where he was. I answered properly as well, all excited to be able to do that, and we just kept going, sending messages and RPs everyday... I swear to God that he is a perfect Loki XD Karine offered him a glass of water while he was seeing that some of his injuries had been treated by her, and he just looked at her and said "I don't want it.". And I couldn't help but imagine how funny it seemed like he was pouting and saying "do not want" xDDD But the RP itself was more perfect than that, and it was so weird because it just felt like... It felt like he KNEW exactly what needed to happen and what my ideas were, because after each text I was spazzing because that was exactly what I would have loved to happen and it was all so much better because he just made a perfect Loki... :heart:

We kept RPing everyday and one day I got to talk to him outside the interpretation, in a private chat~ He usually got on late, not at the same time as I, but that day he actually appeared while I was there and we started talking and he was just simply the kindest and sweetest person ever... ;o; :heart: He said that my character was amazing and that he was really looking forward for that RP, and that he was really excited for it and all... <3

And we got to talk more oftenly outside the RP as well, and it became a great habit~! :heart: I was having a enormous fun with the interpretation because Loki actually death treathened Karine and I was like "THAT IS JUST GOLD". Because you see, how often did I see a character RPer of like... Sesshoumaru from InuYasha, who is a DEAD SERIOUS character and the guy just comes to you and says "Hey gurl wassup". 'OTL I swear it does happen. There is a lot of unprofessional RPers here and I was always like UGH... And even though that doesn't add wrong that the fact that someone who is a bad RPer can be a nice person, it's quite a miracle to see a perfect RPer who is also an amazing person... You know? :heart:

And I am not going to lie.

I was growing a crush for him >///////////<

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I couldn't help but start feeling that way because I was having such an icredible experience with our RPs and also getting to know him in "person" and it was just... So amazing >< Loki was acting perfectly, but as he was also still injured he made a agreement with Karine that he was going to stay there with her until his wounds were fully healed, and after that he would "dispose of her and leave", as he so charmingly said. xD Karine comprehended who he really was but even so she decided to help him; because she felt like he needed some help and she sympathized with him. After he became a little more calmer, that is XD It was interesting because he slowly started to get used to her around, and even began to talk to her. The first times he was angrily explained things that had happened and his point of view of everything, but then... He gradually started to just talk to Karine and tell his opinions to her while listening to hers as well.

GOSH. IT WAS JUST SO PRECIOUS ;A; :heart:

And while that was happening there, we still talked pretty much every week in the chat, and he always said that he had missed me and that he was always looking forward to seeing me there again ;u; And I said that I always went there eager to see his messages and everything <3<3<3

Then in the end of the year he started to get a little more busy but even so he messaged me regularly and all... And I can say that I missed him so much when he couldn't get in... It took over me because he started to be so essencial to me, you know...? I just wanted to be there with him all day, and all week... ç.ç
But one day -- I recall it perfectly -- in the beggining of January, he appeared on the chat and called me. We started talking as we always did and he kept saying that he was sorry for not being able to stay much and that he had missed me a lot... But I said it was ok and that I would be always there for him. At the same time, in the RP, some amazingly epic things were happening ;o; Loki was frustrated about his past and Karine was supporting him, when he looked at her an said, out of the blue: "You... You're very solitary, aren't you? I know the solitude very well, and I can see when someone's been trough similar. It's a shame, because your eyes are simply beautiful, but sad... However, I can see that there is a certain glow is appearing in them, and when that shine completely fill your eyes... Your look will have a divine beauty."
After I had pretty much a huge heart attack and went like 'WAIT WHAT' and 'DID THAT JUST HAPPEN OR DID I DREAM IT' I replied to him and Loki's behaviour started to change slightly, as he was noticing that he could kinda open himself to Karine that she wouldn't mind. He began to ask about her instead of keep talking about him, and she pretty much told him her story. They were acting comfortable towards each other and he didn't have so much of a homicidal attitude to her anymore x'D
Now, back to the chat on thay day... While that was happening in the RP we were talking more and I was on msn with my cousin. I was both a little sad and edgy because I already knew what I was feeling and it was getting really hard to hide it, and I knew that as he was busy it would take another long time for him to go on again... So I started to consider telling him. I thought that if it was to be the worst, it had to be soon, you know? OTL

So while we were talking, I took the chance and casually dropped it there.

I can safely say that I went trough the most intense 3 minutes of my life. XD

While I was waiting for an answer I was spazzing and dying over in the conversation with my cousin and fearing that he wouldn't even say anything or worse and all when I saw in the chat "Loki is writing". Then I rushed like a moron into the msn window and started to spazz even more @_@ But then I had a second heart attack...

But it was a good one. ;v;

H-he actually said that he felt the same about me. That he started to feel so happy when we talked and that a huge affection started to grow in his heart... And also that he was afraid of telling me because he didn't know that if he said it too early or too late he would end up ruining everything... A-and I was dying @////@
I couldn't believe that I was actually seeing that...

I hurried to say that he would never ruin anything, and that I was sure of what I was feeling for some time, but only then I managed to gather courage enough to actually say it. He replied happily, saying that I was braver than him but now that I had said it he was free to do the same... Then he said he loved me too. :heart:

I swear to God I was close to fainting in front of the computer x///D

We talked more and more, and I couldn't bear my own excitement and joy ;Q; Then after a while he asked me if I wanted to be his. :heart: If I wanted to be the Karine to his Loki. ;;;;u;;;;

I was close to #BRB DYING but I managed to type that of course I wanted to~ Q///u///Q :heart: And then... Well...

I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN IT ANY MORE HNG :heart: I'm so uber shy here UGHGUHU @///v///@ But I honestly still can't believe how lucky I am. :heart:

I know it's been like three months from that already but you guys have to forgive me because it was the hardest thing for me to get the courage to tell him and now to tell you all QuQ''' I'm so sorry! I've been SO piled up with things to do at the same time I was exploding in feels so I kinda had to push this news to the side, waiting for the proper moment to tell you all.

And that moment couldn't be more perfect now that my sister finished the drawing she was going to make of Karine ;U; Look!!

Just a Simple Young Lady by Isa-Love-Anime

That's her <333 I am going to write a quick profile of her here but it would really mean a lot to me if you could just check out the drawing and maybe comment on it? ;u; I'm sure my sister would appreciate it 8D She made a great job on it >u< I would pretty much love to hear you guys's opinion on her ( but please be gentle with me /sob/ *spank'd* ) and even if you don't know much of the Avengers, just pointing out something about the drawing would make us both happy too! :heart:

I hope you guys see that this is a HUGE part of my life, and I'm still over the hedge of excitement ;u; :heart: This is all thanks to the Avengers and Loki, oh mY GOD. <3 And that's also one of the reasons why I adore Karine so much. :heart: She's become a very interesting and special character to me. ;u; Like, really. <3

Hahaha... OTL I hope this doesn't sound cheesy or silly... And that I explained well enough ;-;

...

...That's it XD



~Mah



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ForestAntlers's avatar
....:iconlazepoolplz: I don't know what to do anymore
That is so beautiful...a-and awesome...a-a-and......:iconcryforeverplz:
You are so lucky to have a caring, quirky, kind and loving Loki <3
And Karine is just so....amazing ;w; Her story, her looks, her- well, everything! :D
My Avengers OCs shall kneel before Karine UuU
(Well, all except Alixandria becacuse she is one crazed up froot loop who will be crazy jealous because...well...I should post her bio sometime XD)
*sighs* anyways...your very lucky :3
omr when he said 'I know the solitude very well' I was all like 'REALLY?! 'CAUSE SHE WANTS TO KNOW YOU DEAR SIR.' XD